Crowded Malls

Walking through crowded Malls bumping into people

Muddling through grimacing

Looking at the hot sun through my small car window saving a lousy quart of gas

Tossing crumpled hamburger papers over my shoulder turning left on Mulberry Drive

Scratching my anguished head

Longing for Taco Tuesday craving an ice cold beer

Looking at that overdue bill that screams at me in the corner over there

Calling in sick to work submerging anonymously into a theater sitting next to a Continue reading “Crowded Malls”

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Deafly Thinking

Arise and walk softly like dead men do

Straight into that terrible night

Follow them in the blackest tunnel of tunnels

There, lies the burning image of all things past

Where lights above pass quickly behind the corpse’s footsteps

Catch up to him fella, he walks slow enough

Tap him on his shoulder, he’ll Continue reading “Deafly Thinking”

Hell Bent

Hell bent and nothing left to lose

Pulled the long worn tarp off the fifty nine Cad in that dusty old one car garage

Squeezed into that crusty leather jacket

Started up old Black Bessie with decrepit battery cables

Driving nineteen sixty three Cadillac Hearse down my shady road full of dark houses

Hell bent sweaty hands grimy wheel rolling down blood moon road

Enter Highway 666 ninety miles an hour and climbing

Gusts of wind

Old greasy hair

Echoing words sweet bobby sock girl

Her memory sleeps in an Continue reading “Hell Bent”

Sweet Addiction

Oh, give praise to the glory of that precious

hot black bitter poison

we just have to have in the morning!

Better than gold it is

Gets us up and going

A gift that keeps on giving

That wormy Trojan horse!

That double edged knife!

That two sided coin!

That keeps on robbing our Continue reading “Sweet Addiction”

Change

There’s bad in the world

 

There’s good in the world

 

But, where does it live?

 

Where is good and bad, really?

 

Isn’t it in the hearts and minds of mankind?

 

I do pray, but I can’t tell outside me that anything has been changed by God because of me and my invisible prayers

 

God doesn’t change

 

Why would he?

 

He doesn’t have to answer to anyone

 

He calls the shots

 

I have changed though

 

Sometimes, out of sheer necessity

 

I can look back through my life and see that it’s so

 

I can verify that

 

I learned a valuable lesson in life that I can change no one but me

 

And, it’s been mighty hard

 

At times, very easy

 

Change is good

 

Change is bad

 

But, only I can make me change

 

I can’t change you

 

No one likes to be changed

 

No one can be made to change

 

They have to muster up their own motivation

 

I keep telling myself I can change

 

And, I know I still can

 

Because, I did so before on many occasions

 

Sometimes, I did it for the wrong reasons

 

I changed for someone else because they wanted me to change

 

Then, when I did

 

They didn’t want me anymore

 

Because, I was not the same person they met in the beginning

 

Funny how that works

 

There are still some things about me I want to change

 

It never happens when I want it to

 

It happens in its own time although the basic me will never change

 

Sometimes, we’re not quite ready for a change in ourselves or surroundings

 

I know that I can change the way I look at things even though I’m old and set in my ways

 

God has all the time he wants to do whatever it is he does

 

And, I know his work is hidden from my eyes and ears

 

I’m sure he feels it’s none of my damned business what he does, how he thinks, and all that garbage

 

I’m just me trying to get by and get to the next level

 

Because when you think you’re wise

 

Life proves you wrong

 

And, sometimes when something changes in you

 

You can’t figure out if it made your life worse or better

 

You may still have the wrong idea

 

You may never know what’s up or down about it

 

Like the wisest men, I don’t have endless time here on earth to think things out like God does

 

My time here is a mere speck of sand in eternity

 

Yet, In the meantime…

 

My body changes, my mind changes, and my spirit changes

 

From head to toe

 

Straight down to the place my soul lives

 

Wherever that is

 

No one knows

 

Or, will ever find out…

 

 

 

Rotting Green Rats

No one I know of loves Rotting Green Rats

But, that’s not the point of it

At least, not now

I love my little Tammy still

And, I miss her so

It’s been over fifteen years

This is for her, I do

Such a wonderful friend who accompanied me on my quest for work in Arizona in the early nineteen nineties

She was so happy in her cage when I came back to the Motel

It jumped up and down on the cage ready to greet me

She smiled as she licked my face

She crawled under my shirt

I felt her claws gaining traction on my chest

Until, she popped her cute little head out and licked my face

She was getting old and couldn’t see well

One day she fell off the couch Continue reading “Rotting Green Rats”

Always

My love for you is always like leaves falling

Yes, I know It’s no big deal

But, you have to take a closer look to appreciate it

Look at all the falling leaves

See their beautiful colors

There’s

Reds,

Greens,

Yellows,

and

Browns

Look at them

Aren’t they beautiful falling in a breeze?

We sit on this bench hand in hand and they fall around our Continue reading “Always”