The Present Delay
I have no way of knowing
you sought to evolve through
It is that you might want to advance your being
beyond what you are.
That you get to know you better
when you become
a more genuine authentic you.
then, the foundation’s set…
In other words, when we accept ourselves
and our lot in life, as it currently is,
we can then go on with our business
not as usual
but in the unusual.
You, and all along, you
and I mean me
can never do better than
when you say to yourself, you are simply
You can tell yourself how you should be,
(even, to the point of trying to be a self so contrived it makes you ache
as if you have been poisoned)
It’s not an easy walk by any stretch…
but, it’s the way to go being OK with ‘just being me.’
not living in a shell.
being a hermit.
on no man’s island.
no enlightenment living in a cave.
Interacting with others teaches you to, ‘be me.’
So, what’s the point of all this?
I mean, all the adversity and S__T you have to endure
so often with a smile on your face while your soul cries
those tears of agony?
honestly, both our old souls aren’t smiling much these days, are they?
I think not.
Things in life good or bad, and it’s always that way,
because that’s how life comes to you;
you have to go through them both.
we try to be happy, but that isn’t helping.
we try not to be sad, and that doesn’t help.
we focus on the positive
and that distracts
leaving what needs to be looked at
under a blanket safe and warm.
It’s the experience that matters in that how you feel
makes you notice that things often happen that
do, in the end, change you.
Maybe, that’s the point of all this being alive and living stuff.
But, what do these experiences of life change us into?
some of us, don’t change.
but, for those who are willing and do,
Is it a new person, and
What kind of person
will you have become?
you won’t know until it happens.
that’s how it works.
but, then we forget how we were
because we’ve moved on…
do we become
A more bitter self?
A wiser self?
Some mixture of both?
I would think so, being
no one ever becomes perfect.
Why would anyone want to become perfect?
There is no definition for that.
I can’t think of anyone else.
I guess you could say we have a say or choice in all this,
(self growth, I guess. I don’t even think I am interested in my own
growth anymore. I simply want to be able to get through it all and stay in one piece
and be able to find where I am at any present delay)
Nevertheless, I don’t think it changes the way we feel
(what I mean, is when we see that we have changed through the years.
You know, as we grow up. I mean, I can look back now and see that I have changed and have grown up. But, I am still quite childish about some things that really bug me)
even though it changes how we look at things.
are we both seekers
of truth in our much
tangled web you look at
as you drink
that pretty penny drink
how we’ve both made
of what they
and, then, you might as well
take another sip
and think of where
you are going
and begin cherishing
your final sip
cupped in both your hands.